I never told you what my 'mean' score was on that sexual orientation test.

I am a 1, plus or minus 0.5.

There ya go, Jessie.

I was thinking today, about nothing in particular. Riding the bus, half-reading The Da Vinci Code for the second time, half-watching the people around me. I thought about waxing poetic on the beauty in this world, but I decided not to.

Lent is coming up, and I am looking forward to it. I will be going veggie - this was mostly brought on because my roommate Ben became Eastern Orthodox in January, and he will be eating a vegan diet during Lent. So, to help with the grocery logistics, I decided to eat almost the same diet with him. I like to fast once a week, but I'm not sure if I will be able to do that, eat vegetarian, and also workout every morning.

...I guess we'll see.

I've been asked why I will be going vegetarian for Lent. There are many good reasons people eat a vegetarian diet, but for me it's quite interesting - mostly because I am basically a meat-atarian, and cannot truly imagine what not eating meat will be like. But I want to try this, and I feel it to be important.

And not because I am against killing animals. I definitely don't agree with the shitty and tortuous conditions that many animals are thrown into in the mass-produced market of crappy meat we normally find in most grocery stores. But the very idea of killing animals in order to eat was forever cemented for me in my oft-told story from Namibia. Forever, our ancestors hunted and gathered, and lived their lives. There's something primal and necessary about a small family purchasing a goat, slaughtering it, and feeding themselves for weeks.

Now, when it comes to the meat industry, I have my qualms. I am not well-versed enough on the tactics and ethics of many corporate meat industries (besides what I've seen in a movie put out by PETA), so I won't try and act like I am. But if I simply look at most meat packages, I am amazed to see how much crap is in the meat other than the meat itself.

The other thing is money. It costs a lot to eat a diet with meat. I won't mind spending 40 days not spending money on meat.

There are many friends I know who eat veggie and don't ever miss meat - mostly because they never really were enamored with meat in the first place. I am not like these people. I will miss meat, even the processed ham that comes in environmentally-unsound packaging.

Man, I'm even hungry right now as I think about it. Dammit, this is going to be hard.

Finally, the...wait, I really don't have anything else to say right now, and it's 8.30am. I should start working.